Jenna sings some more

As promised, here are some more clips of Jenna singing.

I can imagine her singing the first song on this clip to us right now:

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This one still makes me laugh. She still kept going for a good while after the recorder thangamabob cut out!

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Today wasn’t such a bad day. It was full and busy and I didn’t have as much time to think and reminisce and miss my girly-girl. I do find that as time marches on relentlessly I miss her more. I expect the difficult part of the road lies ahead of me. I cannot predict what it will be like for me from here on out but I realise that, like Jesus said to Martha, one thing is needful. The one thing that is needful for me right now is to stay at the feet of Jesus and take each day and every step on this journey, one at a time.

If I appear to be strong through this trial it is only a testimony of how faithful our God is to provide the grace we need when we need it. I miss Jenna more acutely every day and I wonder sometimes whether the wheels will come spinning off and I will be dumped into a time of  deep and raw and bleak grieving. I do know that even there though, God will be with me.  

Psalm 18:28 For thou wilt light my candle: the LORD my God will enlighten my darkness.

On our last day here with Jenna on American soil, we rushed into the church office to get some last minute things. I grabbed two of our teaching manuals, hoping to pass it on to friends in South Africa. The one was on Walking with God, and the other on The valley experience.  Little did I know that I would be walking through a major valley of my own very soon and that I was actually carrying those manuals overseas for my own use!

What stuck with me when I listened to those teachings again was that they talk about walking through the valley. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death…(Ps 23) … Who passing through the valley of Baca make it a well… (Ps 84:6)

The valley experience doesn’t last forever, and there are all kinds of precious promises for those of us who pass through it.  I have studied them, and I trust that one day they will come to pass for me. But for now all I can really do is walk through it. One. step. at. a. time.

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6 responses to “Jenna sings some more

  1. Sumi,
    I am just so grateful that Jenna has parents that love Jesus & shared Him with her. I’m thankful you didn’t think you had all the time in the world and that she was too young to know and sing about Jesus. I bet it just about knocks Jesus off His throne as she stands before Him singing Jesus loves me. I’ve always loved when little kids figure something out on her own. I wish you were there with your camera to capture when she got it that she was singing to Jesus Himself!! The look on her sweet face had to make the angels melt! Just the pictures you’ve shared of her and how she’s looking at that cat, I just imagine her sitting on Jesus’ lap and playing with His hair. I already love this little girl and I don’t even know her. He knows everything about her and must just be so excited to have her on His lap. And that sweet voice.
    Oh Sumi. Once you get through it, what awaits you on the other side of the valley must be some pure glory.
    Bless you sister as you pour Jenna’s sweetness into our hearts with every picture, song and story you share with us of her. I just love her.
    Love,
    Lelia

  2. Sumi,
    I came by your blog the other day but I couldn’t type you a message, my heart just overflowed. My youngest daughter fell into my mom’s swimming pool and we almost lost her when she was about the same age.

    While I can’t imagine what you feel, I do know some of what you are feeling too. If that makes sense. I’m praying for you and I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing you Jenna with us!

    Jenny

  3. Good morning Sumi,
    I am leaving this evening for vacation in NYC with my mom and sister. I will be away from the computer but will be anxious to check in when I return.
    I keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
    Love,
    Valerie

  4. Sweet Sumi,
    I have never in my entire life been so touched by such words that you have written in here of you beautiful daughter, Jenna. My heart aches for you…I have a girl of the same age, and I can’t even begin to fathom what you are dealing with. I found your blog through Lysa’s blog, and I know the Lord wanted me to find it, as I struggle with so many issues of fear etc… You are a testament to God’s AMAZING grace, and are inspiring in ways you can’t even imagine. I am lifting you and your family up in prayer DAILY. Your daughter is just beautiful, what a sweet little angel!! My beautiful Mom is also with the Lord, and I imagine that she is with Jenna too. I know it sounds funny, but I have always thought of my mom as one that would greet the little ones in Heaven! I pray for your comfort and continued strength.
    Your sister in Christ,
    Elizabeth

    http://www.stjudeheroes.org/site/TR/Events/Tribute?pg=fund&fr_id=1341&px=1554272&JServSessionIdr012=3g1wt7fee1.app43a

  5. Just beautiful, Sumi. I loved her Old McDonald song…hee haw…hee haw. Just so cute.

  6. Again, thanks so much for sharing.

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